excuse me mate!

something incredibly traumatic occurred last night on a night of funness and geishas. which leads to this post...

now that the incredibly vast majority of us are in uni and as a consequence of chasing our dreams, our high school cliques and social groups have inadvertently broken up due to attending different uni's. which then means that we've in the past 5 yrs developed new social groups to hang out with i.e high school group of friends, uni group of friends, boyfriend's group of friends friends.

now i am terrible. i am horrible. i am me. i, despite popular belief, do not actually take that much effort and time in maintaing friendships. i strangely don't have this weird need to hang onto each and everyone who has graced my life. i think subconciously i work on the level that if you put in effort to maintain me as a friend, then i shall do the same.

but on the flip side, what happens then if you find out that those you thought are your friends secretly exclude you from social gatherings? from something as simple as just a get together lunch to people's birthdays. are they trying to subtlely tell you you're out? no longer needed, wanted or loved? if both parties know that you will not attend the gathering, should a regulatory invite be extended anyway just so you don't feel excluded? is that not where the thought lies?

then the bigger question is, what do you do when you bump into the so-called not invited "friend" when you and your group are all out and she/he sees that he/she was ostracised? for that, you are all invited to my wedding. i wouldn't want to step on anyone's toes here.

p.s does anyone notice the steady decline in visitors to this blog as the months go by? do i hear you say "BRING BACK THE PORN!"????