my quarter life crisis...
i'm 3 years too early for it, but heck i guess i won't be as worried when i am actually 25.
so life has come to a stand still and now i'm waiting for the next chapter to begin but then 'life' encompasses so many aspects. usually i roll with the punches, the ups and downs, cos that's what one does...go along for the ride, and just take it in. i mean that's how we learn on a social scale in our lives. so usually when something really, REALLY bugs me i consider it to be something significant...so much so it makes me take a step back and think "woah. what gives?"
self righteous, vain, egotistical, thinking too big of myself (however you may all want to put it in your subtle/not so subtle ways) or not, i don't really care cos it's what i think but i think i've had it...reaching my personal limitation. on what?? well on feeling that at times (and the frequency of this is increasing) people aren't interest in me...no not talking as in "omg why am i single??? why does no one love me?!?!?" but more on "great, fine...that's okay i'll go talk to a brick wall instead cos it will probably pay more attention and feign a passing interest in my conversation".
there will never be one person besides yourself who will ever know every single detail, every single secret about you, but knowing someone and knowing them well would assume that in the course of the relationship there's been equal give and take. sharing and caring. listening and talking. well i've reached a state where i'm feeling almost as if i am being taken advantage of. giving more than i am receiving (yes i know this sounds selfish...i don't care).
i listen and sometimes i think i listen too much. but that's how i know things about you guys. now i'm wondering with all the talking going on from the other side of the fence, just really how much do you know about the real me? maybe it is time for changes but then who does the changing? me? others?
see i figure most of you guys would've stopped reading by about the end of the first sentence but oh well. just needed to vent. don't cry for me bloggers, this is just momentary thing. it ain't like i can "fix" other people. sorry dude who wanted hotbabes and fish and instead got this. this was actually gonna be a bit more "ANGRY" but i've gone for a walk, had some chocolate so the happy hormones are floating throughout me now.
cheers,
- contemplative, slightly "to heck with the world, leave my bubble and me to be" helga -
so life has come to a stand still and now i'm waiting for the next chapter to begin but then 'life' encompasses so many aspects. usually i roll with the punches, the ups and downs, cos that's what one does...go along for the ride, and just take it in. i mean that's how we learn on a social scale in our lives. so usually when something really, REALLY bugs me i consider it to be something significant...so much so it makes me take a step back and think "woah. what gives?"
self righteous, vain, egotistical, thinking too big of myself (however you may all want to put it in your subtle/not so subtle ways) or not, i don't really care cos it's what i think but i think i've had it...reaching my personal limitation. on what?? well on feeling that at times (and the frequency of this is increasing) people aren't interest in me...no not talking as in "omg why am i single??? why does no one love me?!?!?" but more on "great, fine...that's okay i'll go talk to a brick wall instead cos it will probably pay more attention and feign a passing interest in my conversation".
there will never be one person besides yourself who will ever know every single detail, every single secret about you, but knowing someone and knowing them well would assume that in the course of the relationship there's been equal give and take. sharing and caring. listening and talking. well i've reached a state where i'm feeling almost as if i am being taken advantage of. giving more than i am receiving (yes i know this sounds selfish...i don't care).
i listen and sometimes i think i listen too much. but that's how i know things about you guys. now i'm wondering with all the talking going on from the other side of the fence, just really how much do you know about the real me? maybe it is time for changes but then who does the changing? me? others?
see i figure most of you guys would've stopped reading by about the end of the first sentence but oh well. just needed to vent. don't cry for me bloggers, this is just momentary thing. it ain't like i can "fix" other people. sorry dude who wanted hotbabes and fish and instead got this. this was actually gonna be a bit more "ANGRY" but i've gone for a walk, had some chocolate so the happy hormones are floating throughout me now.
cheers,
- contemplative, slightly "to heck with the world, leave my bubble and me to be" helga -
posted by viking_mistresses at 10:20 AM
4 Comments:
maybe you need to go on detox from the world.
can't cos i will seriously go broke if the same detox rules applied. they're everywhere.
you could use pink fluffy earmuffs
it's ok, i won't cry for you.
:)
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